28th January, Sunday Though 26th had ended all those fairytales in me, and made me a different person that I once used to be. But through everyone's supports and encouragement this past days, I had finally stand up and be that someone that I always used to be. I may mean someone to the world, but I'm sure that I always mean the world to someone too. (:
Life changed after that day. There's no more of phone calls from him, messages from him. No more meetings at hougang mall, and nevertheless no more sight from him. But this friends and seniors of lion dance, called me to comfort me, told me lots of things I had never knew. I realised I was so much protected by them. All those secrets that I had never used to know, were all revealed. 26th&27th were the days I knew more people, and knew this girl called theresa. She was nice, and she told me everything about zz. I felt the pain of being cheated, or not to be so harsh, lies that I had been hidden from.
Yesterday, as usual, met theresa, nelson, mingzheng, jiahao, jianhua, and another guy( I forgotten his name. =x ). We played arcade like maniacs but I knew they're just trying to cheer me up. We went serangoon mac at night. Met guojing and his stead. Nelson, Guojing and I discussed over zz. They told me another story again. But I will never know the truth, I guess. After that, we ate at the coffeeshop. Had a tiff with the drink stall auntie from another coffeeshop. Whatever it is, we went back mall afterwards. On the bus, guojing talked to me again, about zz. I was rather confused. But he comforted me loads luh. So I think I will continue to find out the real reason. Mingzheng also asked about it, but his stupid jokes cheered me up again. -.- For god-knows-what-reason luh. lols. Jiahao tried to cheer me up too. So thankyou everyone. xD theresa too. (: Reached mall, played ddr with jianhua and jiahao. and flagged cab home after that. reached home at 12pm.
And congrats to beverly. (: cong lai le! The best news I heard this month. :D and dawn, thankyou so much for lending me your shoulder. I appreciate it alot. Thankyou tzuchao kor for alaf always to cheer me up, heh. And nevertheless, your jokes as well. Thankyou blur king for encouraging me so much and comfort me, as always. Letting me know that you're always there for me. Thankyou yiqing, for all your comfort and love, you'll always be the one I love no matter how long we don't get to see each other, because you'll always stay in my heart. Thankyou Esmond, for telling me the truth, and made me a better person. VERY THANKYOU nelson, theresa, mingzheng, jiahao, jianhua, and that guy, for accompanying me through my worst times. And with all your entertainment, I promise I will stand up again and all of you will see a better me. (:
For those that you don't see your name up there, that doesn't mean I had forgotten you people, because all of you will be kept close to my heart. I love you people and thanks for everything. All of you mean the world to me. :D
and you boy, i don't really care whatever that really had happened to us. and tho I had never really known the truth behind all these things you had created, but I knew all the lies and stories you tried to cover up your guilt. You had never been someone I should trust anyway. Tho my love for you had never change since the day you went away, I think that doesn't matter to me anymore. I don't bother being your friend because your guilt doesn't matter to me too. Get it? You don't worth the qualities to be my friend either. There're tons of people out there for me to discover and you're not one of them. So, to ease your guilt, you can find other solutions, as I said, I won't bother, I won't care, and I won't ease it for you. There won't be a turn back this time because my heart won't open out for you ever again. And I will promise myself this time round. I will try loving myself more and will never ever drop another tear for you. You can just continue walking your path and go on. I will just smile and love someone else instead. (:
Wishlist!
# Blue, purple & brown contacts
# A new pair of spectacles
## shed away 3kgs of fats!
# grow taller!
# adidas jacket ( crown design; for male )
## urgent !nose piercing
### get a part time job
# black and white shorts at kovan
# Levi beige-coloured shoes
# new phone.
# hello kitty glitter necklace. :DD
# thin red belt.
# red-coloured tamagotchi!
# fleshimp bag
# glitter font tshirts
# glitter watch
# japanese socks with black and white strips.
# strawberry rubberband .
# ipod nano .
# black cardigan .
# double holes ear rings .
# CASH. xD
Agenda 9th April . Zhizhong's birthday. 14 April . Homecoming. 30th April . exams started. 11 May . exams ended. 22nd May . MY BIRTHDAY.
26th May . June Holidays !
4th june ~ 11th june . japan trip .
