I am back everyone. Today was a tough day for me. With tears and laughter, I managed to bear through the whole day. So I decided to tell out what had happened.
It started with a small conversation with Melvin Kor about Mr Umbrella. I said I was close with him as a good friend. And I guess that wasn't wrong to have a guy as a friend bahs. Maybe to him, it was a crime. But to me, it was a fortune I have got. Then, it went on with HIM messaging me and Melvin Kor calling me 4am in the morning. Yeah, you didn't read wrongly. 4 am. A ridiculous timing I know. *rolls my eyes*
And he told me it was over between both of us. He can't stand me having so many guys liking me. And for that, am i supposed to be sentenced to death? Was that a crime? Having guy friends are wrong? Why not just tell the truth? You lost trust. And for goodness sake, he was just someone I could confront to when things turned out badly between me andyou. Someone that lends me a listening ear when I need it. Someone that will be there for me when I am down. And THAT makes no crime to him for being there for me. He is obviously innocent and of course, totally not involved. Maybe HE just wanted to leave. But the words and reasons he used were far too harsh and sarcastic. I had got no guilt in me, or whatever it is, mr umbrella is nothing got to do with this.
I had just lost someone I love, someone I trust upon to give me happiness till the end of time. But the promises he made were empty and useless. What for I holdon to a love that will never ever bloom? HE can forgo a month plus relationship compared to someone I only knew for 4 days. And I did not even mention a freaking word about he and another girl and even risked to call her and clarify. Now it seemed that whatever I did was useless. I was just grabbing hold to seeds that will never grow, ; hopes that will never show light ; dreams that will never be fulfilled. And for that, I shall leave him behind my memories, lock it up with a key. Break that key and dump it somewhere so that it will never be found. And those memories will never be opened and reminsced again. And never will I drop a single tear for those dreams we held onto. Those hopes and promises we gave.
The End.
Don't ever try to push the blame to my friends. They rawked but you don't.
Wishlist!
# Blue, purple & brown contacts
# A new pair of spectacles
## shed away 3kgs of fats!
# grow taller!
# adidas jacket ( crown design; for male )
## urgent !nose piercing
### get a part time job
# black and white shorts at kovan
# Levi beige-coloured shoes
# new phone.
# hello kitty glitter necklace. :DD
# thin red belt.
# red-coloured tamagotchi!
# fleshimp bag
# glitter font tshirts
# glitter watch
# japanese socks with black and white strips.
# strawberry rubberband .
# ipod nano .
# black cardigan .
# double holes ear rings .
# CASH. xD
Agenda 9th April . Zhizhong's birthday. 14 April . Homecoming. 30th April . exams started. 11 May . exams ended. 22nd May . MY BIRTHDAY.
26th May . June Holidays !
4th june ~ 11th june . japan trip .
