Today was far more boring than usual. I woke up at 1.15pm, couldn't sleep at all last night. I kept tossing around in bed, thinking of what really made me so worried that I could even sacrifice my sleeping time. I couldn't figure it out at first, it was till I couldn't take it and my eyes started feeling heavy and that thought came into my mind. Did I change alot after being with him?
I tried to struggle with my answers, I tried guessing every possiblity my close friends could give me. But none of them could clear the doubts in me. I had had neglected my friends for that month. I did not spend much time on them, I didn't know how they really feel, and perhaps did I even care? I felt so guilty towards them. They had completely lost me for a guy. That was not what I wanted! I could have asked myself, in my heart, which place was he in? In my heart, how much love and care he carried. At that moment I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep, I decided never to let my friends down ( esp. the wonderwomen. ). (:
It was a sleepness night. I had a weird dream. I couldn't see the person, all I know is that, at that point of time, I loved him more than anything and my friends were around, all three of them.
It began like this. It was a mist, before everything settled into place and a picture began to form in my mind. I was standing there by the sea. The seawater caressed my feet. I stared into that empty beach, hoping that I wasn't alone. Suddenly, at that most gloomy time of my life, someone held my hand gently from behind. I turned around, I couldn't make out who he was, the sunlight was too blaring. I gave up that hope of finding out who he was and wait on for what will happen next. My friends appeared beside me, ( shirley, maureen, sophia.) they pushed me towards his arms. Falling forward, he broke the fall by letting me fall into his warm arms and touched my hair ever so gently. My heart totally melted, when that moment he stared into my eyes. I still could not make out who he was. All I knew was he was there. He loved me. He brought my hands and placed them on his chest, he stared into my eyes and told me, " I still love you, and I always do. I had never leave you. Never had I broke that promise we made. " Those words. Sounded so familiar. I wondered when I had heard that before. I didn't care much, I just wanted the next thing to happen. He kissed my forehead. All the sadness was thrown into the sea. At that point, I really loved him. My friends cheered and encouraged me to reply him back. But before I could answer, he was gone. My friends were gone. The beach was gone.
I woke up with a start. Those words he said rang in my ears. Just a stream of tears crawled down my cheeks from my right eye. I wiped it away. I just wanted to reply, " I love you too. "
It was just a dream. But I was really curious who that guy could be. Why would I dream of him. I couldn't see his face. All i know is that, he maybe someone, somewhere, waiting for me. (: what a nice nice dream. ha. xD if only it was a reality.
takecare everyone. tell me your dreams! i am fascinated by mine. And I hope to have another one tonight. x)
Wishlist!
# Blue, purple & brown contacts
# A new pair of spectacles
## shed away 3kgs of fats!
# grow taller!
# adidas jacket ( crown design; for male )
## urgent !nose piercing
### get a part time job
# black and white shorts at kovan
# Levi beige-coloured shoes
# new phone.
# hello kitty glitter necklace. :DD
# thin red belt.
# red-coloured tamagotchi!
# fleshimp bag
# glitter font tshirts
# glitter watch
# japanese socks with black and white strips.
# strawberry rubberband .
# ipod nano .
# black cardigan .
# double holes ear rings .
# CASH. xD
Agenda 9th April . Zhizhong's birthday. 14 April . Homecoming. 30th April . exams started. 11 May . exams ended. 22nd May . MY BIRTHDAY.
26th May . June Holidays !
4th june ~ 11th june . japan trip .
