Once, I felt I was the happiest girl on Earth. He made my everyday so full of surprises and hope. He made my darkest moments turned into wonderful memories. I once had him with me, he promised never to leave me, but nothing will last forever. One day, I know he won't be entirely mine. I tried to put that behind my mind. I wondered how he actually loved the girl before me. He could be waiting for so long, waiting for her, loving her, and guarding her through her tough times. I wasn't please, or rather I was really jealous of her, though I knew he was right beside me. I tried to seek for the answer in his heart. I tried asking him so many sensitive questions. I felt annoyed with myself. I always asked myself why I had to do all these, he's mine now, what more I hope for? It was his heart, his love, his promise that I am the only person in his heart. That was the answer that I wanted all along, but he never showed it. I trusted in him for that past few weeks. I loved him with my heart and soul. We did things that made me so happy. We did things that like all couples do. I was really happy for that month. Really very, very happy. We even celebrated my birthday together. We went to catch a movie. He held onto my hand throughout the show. The sense of security I had was indescribable. We sat the lrt twice before he sent me back home. We chatted and laughed over the stories he told me. The times he tried using ghost to scare me out of my wits, but in the end will still assure me he is still with me and he'll protect me. He even said we would run together if we met a ghost. Ha. It was around 8 plus again when he sent me home. He asked for a hug, and I gave him. In his arms, I was no longer scared of anything. His assurance, even if the world crumbled on me, he will help me hold it up. I gave him a goodbye kiss on his right cheek, and his eyes lighted up and laughed. I was glad I was the one that made him happy. He gave me lots of hugs not just that day. He touched my forehead when I was sick, and cared for me. I really loved him a lot but everything had to come to an end. It was that fateful night that the world crashed on me. I was sitting in the band room, not even mentally prepared for that separation to occur. It was around 8pm, the alumni flutist was playing 'titanic', it was really nice and romantic. I started to think about him and my memories. Our happy moments flooded my mind, at the same time, my handphone vibrated - a breakup message. I couldn't control the flow of my tears. So since that particular day, the song titanic makes my heart go wild, it makes my emotions complicated. I won't forget him ; but I won't love him. (:
once hurt ; never hurt twice. ;)
by someone once hurt; but kept comfidential. nah. it wasn't me. x)
sorry! long time no post! aww. I missed the class gathering. x( I LOVE RUTH MY MEI!! xD ok. I am losing my mind. lols. I haven't finished my homework yet. wth.
I watched a new drama series called 'Devil beside me' if I am not wrong. That show completely rocks. Though the kissing part abit too 'agressive'. lol. ( french kisses. hint hint. xD ) But if they're on the streets doing THAT, I guess there's no doubt they're just a lovely couple. hees. I was rather touched by the show. How much the girl and the guy give out in the relationship, and still stayed so strong no matter the objections that might occur and how other people could have comments on them. (: I love that show. You can try going youtube to watch some clips of it, or maybe rent it in the vcd shops. HIGHLY RECOMMENDED ok!
Today had a really really really bad stomachache. I am so terribly freaked out. x(
Wishlist!
# Blue, purple & brown contacts
# A new pair of spectacles
## shed away 3kgs of fats!
# grow taller!
# adidas jacket ( crown design; for male )
## urgent !nose piercing
### get a part time job
# black and white shorts at kovan
# Levi beige-coloured shoes
# new phone.
# hello kitty glitter necklace. :DD
# thin red belt.
# red-coloured tamagotchi!
# fleshimp bag
# glitter font tshirts
# glitter watch
# japanese socks with black and white strips.
# strawberry rubberband .
# ipod nano .
# black cardigan .
# double holes ear rings .
# CASH. xD
Agenda 9th April . Zhizhong's birthday. 14 April . Homecoming. 30th April . exams started. 11 May . exams ended. 22nd May . MY BIRTHDAY.
26th May . June Holidays !
4th june ~ 11th june . japan trip .
