I didn't blog for days so this entry is going to be very long. so pardon me!
i just came back from band camp. It was a total 'disaster'. The practices were boring, the solo was not confident enough, the ensemble by seniors were nice, especially the trumpets. The trumpets played 'celebration', and I totally enjoyed the whole performance. Their song was catchy and makes people addicted to it. (: The solo was atrocious, I just could not play well in front of Mr Tan. He was so scary, and all my note is like so shivery. Though Mr Desouza was giving me his support, telling me to relax. And care all about air speed and pitching, I just couldn't do it. I can pitch the higher octave yesterday when Adam taught me. But seeing the sight of Mr Tan, I totally lost confidence, and the whole solo sounded so terrible. I was terribly disappointed because it wasn't suppose to turn out this way. Katrina played well yesterday too. I witnessed it. But in front Mr Tan, she lost her confidence too. And she wasn't able to pitch her notes properly and it turned out with the ' brr. brr.' sound. She even cried when she finished her solo. I felt so uncomfortable after that. Everyone's mood was down, some of them cried including the seniors. The 3rd day of the band camp just ended like this, with extreme no mood for anything else.
The first day of the band camp was tough. Mr Kiang went to NS, and Mr Desouza took over. The sec 1 band practised in the choir room. After that almost every single piece, I need to clear the condensation. It was really freaking irritating. And Mr Desouza and the rest of the band made me the ' famous horn player' which also refers as' the one that clears the most condensation every 5 mins.' -.- So, the name didn't sound as good. ha. Mr Desouza was nice, and he is humorous. He made me the band leader for the first day, then followed by Mabel and finally Katrina. The bad thing about being the leader was thatm everytime the fellow junior band mates did something wrong, and was given pumpings, the leader had to do double the amount of it. It turned out that I did the most, because the rest of the days, they weren't as rebellious. The practises Mr Desouza gave was the most astonishing practice I ever had. He will stuff the cloth into the bell of your instrument, and you had to use 'air speed' to blow the cloth out. It's was really difficult. NOT the amount of air, but the air speed. He also gave us rhythm tests, so the band practises with him was rather interesting and enriching. (:
The second day, we had a 'treasure hunt' around the school. It was kind of a night walk. And I was the group leader in group 5. All of us were very co-operative, and I really have lots of fun working together with them to solve the clues to each station. I remember scaring ourselves around the school and even the seniors at each station tried to scare us. It was really fun, but tiring. In the end, we WON! Adding on with a packet of ' Famous Amos cookies '. x) The worse thing about the second day was that, early in the morning at 4.30am, we were woken up by the seniors shouting 'FIRE! FIRE!'. And I immediately knew it was the fire drill. The worse part of band. The seniors mixed up our shoes and we went barefooted. It was really tiring. We had to pump and stay in the pumping position for quite a moment. And my hand and feet hurt alot. FIRE DRILL. argh.
That's almost the end about band camp. Nothing much. I could only say, TIRING and TOUGH. x( On the second day was a day I could never forget. The day when seperation came, and I had to let go. It was difficult to accept and difficult to stop my tears. When the flutist was playing 'Titanic', it was when I saw that sms and tears came rushing into my eyes. Katrina, Sherry, Louise, Jaslynn hugged me tightly and I wished they hadn't let go. My heart ache a thousand times worse than before and I knew it will never be the same anymore. I completely lost control of my feelings in me and I can't control my shattered heart. I would just reminsce the moments that we had together, with the memories flashing through my mind, I hugged all my friends and stopped my tears. Elaine jie also came to comfort me. It was really an incident that showed how much my friends cared for me. Without all of you by my side, I guess I couldn't have smiled yesterday. The heartache that was hidden behind that smile. I will never forget. I could just leave all these behind, and start something new. Someone, somewhere, will be waiting for me. (:
"vanessa, it's time to let go. It will be difficult for the first few days. But a strong girl like you aren't one that he should hurt. There will be someone waiting. Even if it's the other part of the world." (:
to those who had tagged: I m fine! really fine. ((:
Wishlist!
# Blue, purple & brown contacts
# A new pair of spectacles
## shed away 3kgs of fats!
# grow taller!
# adidas jacket ( crown design; for male )
## urgent !nose piercing
### get a part time job
# black and white shorts at kovan
# Levi beige-coloured shoes
# new phone.
# hello kitty glitter necklace. :DD
# thin red belt.
# red-coloured tamagotchi!
# fleshimp bag
# glitter font tshirts
# glitter watch
# japanese socks with black and white strips.
# strawberry rubberband .
# ipod nano .
# black cardigan .
# double holes ear rings .
# CASH. xD
Agenda 9th April . Zhizhong's birthday. 14 April . Homecoming. 30th April . exams started. 11 May . exams ended. 22nd May . MY BIRTHDAY.
26th May . June Holidays !
4th june ~ 11th june . japan trip .
