eh. having fever now. 39.1 degree. i m like not bothering at all? lols. ok. erm. i went for piano lesson, despite of that high fever. crazy me. i noe. =x but it ended up a disaster, coz i cant get the right notes, and i almost destroyed every single piece. hah. T.T teacher was lyk so disappointed in me. and i felt reali sorry. i jus didnt have that mood to excel. and i dun have the strength to do anything. i jus wan to lie on my bed and slp. tts all. but i did not wan to miss anymore piano lesson, since i've missed the previous one. and it's lyk unfair to my teacher. so i went. even tho my pieces were horrible, but my teacher gave me a piano bk that consist of those latest chinese pop songs. and i was reali touched. (: i had no appetite for dinner, so i ate a few mouths of hor fun my mum bought, and threw the rest away. it's wasted. yah. and my cough had not recovered yet. it had been almost a month. i bargained wid my mum that i m NOT going to see the doctor. i hate medicines. argh. and she decided to see if i m still running fever tmr. but the thing is. i dun care. the giddiness makes me forget everything. den just let it be. hah. i m freaking crazy. i noe. and my head is burning lyk hell. but my heart is feeling SOUR SOUR SOUR.
it dun reali matter fever, cancer or wadeva disease. i m jus not in the mood to do anything. and i dun feel lyk toking to anyone, jus wan to tink back abt the past. and chase my mum out of my room, to leave me alone. ha.
remembering the times when you were just beside me when i was feeling so upset coz of him, someone that broke my heart thousand of times. the day i first met you in seven eleven. i didnt noe we were meant to be. the day we sat on the bench till 8pm at nite, tokin abt stuffs we nvr noe we will eva say out again. that nite was the first nite i spent wid u, over a calculator. times passed so fast, and i totally forgot abt him. i devoted my heart to you and i m reali grateful u showed me wad being loved reali is. the days we went to sku and send me home together, i was reali happy. in my heart there isnt him. no more. no more fears. i onli had you. on my bdae, you spend your day wid me till nite. that day was the day i will nvr forget. the first time we walked together holding each others hand. the day your hug made me feel i reali exist in your heart. thk u. i regretted hanging up your call. now i know how hard it is to quit. and now i noe how hard it is without you. my mind is full of you. i jus cant stop tinkin abt the nites we tok on the fone till i slp. and the times i slept in your hugs. i don't wan to let you go lao gong. imu.
Wishlist!
# Blue, purple & brown contacts
# A new pair of spectacles
## shed away 3kgs of fats!
# grow taller!
# adidas jacket ( crown design; for male )
## urgent !nose piercing
### get a part time job
# black and white shorts at kovan
# Levi beige-coloured shoes
# new phone.
# hello kitty glitter necklace. :DD
# thin red belt.
# red-coloured tamagotchi!
# fleshimp bag
# glitter font tshirts
# glitter watch
# japanese socks with black and white strips.
# strawberry rubberband .
# ipod nano .
# black cardigan .
# double holes ear rings .
# CASH. xD
Agenda 9th April . Zhizhong's birthday. 14 April . Homecoming. 30th April . exams started. 11 May . exams ended. 22nd May . MY BIRTHDAY.
26th May . June Holidays !
4th june ~ 11th june . japan trip .
