hey.. hmm..duno why now seem 2 be moody, feelin as if te whole world is fallin on me. Yesterday went out wid Shirley and Yeexi 2 compass den heartland mall. We went 2 take neoprints and ate lunch at te KFC.. though tt cheers me up alittle, bt perhaps behind my mind, ter's sumting else i m worried of. My heart seem 2 ache at te thoughts I m tinkin rite now.. Yesterday while lying on bed.. my tears started rollin down, and i reali didnt noe why. I closed my eyes, tryin 2 slp.. bt i jus cant. I cant control my feelings, te tears jus kept on streamin down my cheeks. I didnt noe why I was cryin, I didnt noe why my heart hurts so much. Neither did I noe why I felt tt awful. I started tossin in my bed, left ; right, tryin 2 get sum slp.. bt i woke up in te end, wid my hands covering my face, floodin myself wid tears. I didnt slp 4 te whole nite tinkin why my heart hurts so much. I once heard frm my frens, 3 phrases tt r te most difficult 2 say - I love you ; sorry ; help me. Bt now, I reali wan2 say one of tt 3 phrases 2 sum1 face to face..bt i jus cant brin myself 2 do it. Over te sms, yes i can. Bt I doubt it, I doubt wad he is tinkin rite nw. I tried 2 tel myself I nid 2 trust him. Yes i did, bt i doubt i can satisfy wad he needs. I doubt i m tt person he needs, i doubt i m te onli 1 in his heart.. coz i feel lyk a replacement, mayb onli he can change my tinkin..
Wishlist!
# Blue, purple & brown contacts
# A new pair of spectacles
## shed away 3kgs of fats!
# grow taller!
# adidas jacket ( crown design; for male )
## urgent !nose piercing
### get a part time job
# black and white shorts at kovan
# Levi beige-coloured shoes
# new phone.
# hello kitty glitter necklace. :DD
# thin red belt.
# red-coloured tamagotchi!
# fleshimp bag
# glitter font tshirts
# glitter watch
# japanese socks with black and white strips.
# strawberry rubberband .
# ipod nano .
# black cardigan .
# double holes ear rings .
# CASH. xD
Agenda 9th April . Zhizhong's birthday. 14 April . Homecoming. 30th April . exams started. 11 May . exams ended. 22nd May . MY BIRTHDAY.
26th May . June Holidays !
4th june ~ 11th june . japan trip .
